Hello the 23rd of June

This is how we parent.  This is how we love. This is our life after loss.

Day 22. Sky MWAH2017

The prompt for day 22 is sky.  I didn't get round to writing this blog as I was so bust with our #ForeverLoved Balloon Project which was a real success! We commemorated over 200 babies yesterday, and it was a really good day, I'll write more about it later. When I found out I was …

#ForeverLoved Balloon Project success! 🎈🎈🎈Photographs and plans for next year.

22nd June 2017. #ForeverLoved Balloon Project photographs! If you would like to be included next year, please comment and names/dates you would like remembered, and contact details (email only please) if you would like a photographic copy of your babies name. Please note that it could be a while after June 22nd 2018 that you recieve your photos, as we are a two person team, who both have busy schedules, especially if we beat our target of 400 names for next year!

Thank you

A huge thank you to Crystal from Living Through Our Loss, who has featured Emmet in her Averie's Angel friends page.

Day 20. Distance #MWAH2017

Distance. The distance between now and losing Emmet is nearly 8 months. In that time we have: both got sick of saying them and named them Emmet on the 14th December 2016, loved them, got sick of still saying them and realized that we both thought of them as a little boy 19th June 2017 …

Day 19. Succumb #MWAH2017

Todays prompt is succumb.  I was supposed to write this monday but was in fact to busy succumbing to my grief that all plans I had went out the window. 

Todays beautiful things. 20.06.17

I was surprised to find beauty today amongst this weeks crazy, but I did and here it is.

Tuesday forecast: Crying with a chance of dinosaurs.

Yesterday my Partner and I had a long emotional talk.  This week is a shit storm already. Whoop de do, we both have exams and our lost baby would be due. Great... Yesterday I asked my Partner if it was totally stupid that I think of he and Emmet as my boys. Even though we could never know their gender.  Turns out he thinks pretty the same way I do about them and so I was Happy/Sad crying half the night. He thinks of them as a tiny boy playing in the living room with plastic dinosaurs.

5 Happy things 18

I'm a day late for my 5 Happy things, but Fathers day was hectic and emotional and I just didn't get round to it. I was dealing with family and then I hibernated a bit instead of writing and watched Sense 8 on Netflix and revised. 

Day 18. Reflect #MWAH2017

Reflect, it can mean think, to look upon, or mirroring. Looking at your reflection... I could reflect on how far I've come, on what I have learnt in the last 8 months, but I wouldn't know what to say. What do you say about something like this. 

Today’s beautiful things 17.06.2017

I'm working on finding the joy in the everyday.

Day 14. Remember #MWAH2017

This should have been written yesterday, but I didn't quite get round to writing it so I will have to do two today 😊 Today's prompt is remembering. 

Today’s beautiful things 16.06.17

Today's beautiful things, actually some of them are yesterdays but I was too busy to write. The mouse in a flower isn't my photo. (From Pinterest). It's just super cute. As are the Jizo. For some reason the captions on my images aren't working. Grr 👹

Day 13. Colour #MWAH2017

Todays prompt is colour. I think of lots of colours when I think of Emmet.  Pink, white, grey, orange, blue, yellow, green. The colours of hope, of love and grief, of my pain and joy. 

Day 12. Wound #MWAH2017

Today's prompt is wound. Some days it does feel like I'm wounded. Other days now I feel better. Slowly I am recovering and more able to take each day as it comes.

5 happy things 17

Eeeek lots of pretty things and new shoes and a hung parliament. What more could a girl ask for. Well appart from the obvious anyway...

Today’s beautiful things

I did one yesterday too but it isn't something I plan on doing every day, just days I feel something is worth sharing. 

Todays beautiful things

These are all the beautiful things I saw today. They cheered me up so I thought I should share them!

Day 7. Be Gentle #MWAH2017

I kind of relate a lot to hedgehogs. They're all spikey and lord knows I have been accused of that more than once. I hope that the world is as gentle to you as the care given to an over wintered hedgehog, so that you are safe and warm and don't feel threatened by day to day life enough to uncurl a little bit and enjoy the day.

Massive break down

Navigating life at the moment is like trecking the Alps without a map in flipflops.